Caleb Carter Rest in PeaceI am appalled by the latest lies that Damon Kruezer is telling about Caleb Carter. He is claiming that he spoke to Caleb and he is also claiming that they were great friends. All of this right on the hills of MJ Taylor handing Damon his ass. Damon has been trying to get involved in the lives of porn stars for years. That is why we The Truth Squad are here to make sure that he does not do this again.
Damon leaves this statement on his website.
Everyone, it is with tears in my eyes that I deeply regret informing you that our San Diego people have confirmed the terrible news: Caleb Carter is dead by his own hand late Friday night, reportedly after a rejection by his latest b.f. and after watching the British movie "The Last Hangman" repeatedly. Benjamin Gilbert was only 24 years old. I am so shocked and saddened. Ben told me how unhappy he was just last month in a long phone conversation, but he gave no indication that he felt suicidal, only determined to change his life and go in a new direction. Ben was one of the most outrageous, funny, creative and intelligent people in the industry, sometimes controversial, never boring, and always a friend of ours. My heartfelt condolences to his friends and family. In memoriam to Ben, I will seek to get the script and show scenario we worked on produced. My condolences also to JC ADAMS and JOHN ROECKER, whom Ben mentioned often to me as valued friends.
Now this would not have been so bad but it is the implied friendship and the lies that he tells about him that disgust me. Caleb is in a much better place and he can not defend himself against these lies. Just as he did with Heath Ledger, Brad Renfro and Danny Roddick Damon has to try an infuse himself into the lives of those who he has never spoken to. That is truly disgusting. Damon is a fame monger and he will not be happy until someone sues him and gets that disgusting technicolor trash page taken off the Internet.
Damon leaves this statement on his website.
Everyone, it is with tears in my eyes that I deeply regret informing you that our San Diego people have confirmed the terrible news: Caleb Carter is dead by his own hand late Friday night, reportedly after a rejection by his latest b.f. and after watching the British movie "The Last Hangman" repeatedly. Benjamin Gilbert was only 24 years old. I am so shocked and saddened. Ben told me how unhappy he was just last month in a long phone conversation, but he gave no indication that he felt suicidal, only determined to change his life and go in a new direction. Ben was one of the most outrageous, funny, creative and intelligent people in the industry, sometimes controversial, never boring, and always a friend of ours. My heartfelt condolences to his friends and family. In memoriam to Ben, I will seek to get the script and show scenario we worked on produced. My condolences also to JC ADAMS and JOHN ROECKER, whom Ben mentioned often to me as valued friends.
Now this would not have been so bad but it is the implied friendship and the lies that he tells about him that disgust me. Caleb is in a much better place and he can not defend himself against these lies. Just as he did with Heath Ledger, Brad Renfro and Danny Roddick Damon has to try an infuse himself into the lives of those who he has never spoken to. That is truly disgusting. Damon is a fame monger and he will not be happy until someone sues him and gets that disgusting technicolor trash page taken off the Internet.
Damon you are a sad excuse for a human being and I think you should apologize to Caleb's friends and family for the lies you have just told.
Nothing surprises me about Broccoli. His psychosis is so strong, he sees nothing wrong in destroying the memory of a person who took his own life...just to further his own ends.
ReplyDeleteCaleb Carter knew Kent Broccoli all right! He knew Kent was a scheming, lying, psychotic, back-stabbing, vicious, cruel waste of human skin. He stayed as far away from Broccoli as possible.
Lets see here, comparing this to past incidents (like Harlow, Heath Ledger, etc..), in this incident Kent:
ReplyDelete1) got scooped - CHECK
2) pretended to know the subject well - CHECK
3) made up phony details - CHECK
4) cited fake "sources" - CHECK
5) invented a recent conversation with subject - CHECK
6) declared he has a fantasy book deal or other project with subject, he was now going to complete - CHECK
So yeah, as predictable as the sun, Kent has gone down his checklist and exploited this tragedy to the hilt.
We have to grade Kentie on a sliding scale of obnoxiousness. He has set the bar of tastelessness so high with his tales of his "good buddy" Heath Ledger, that now when there is even a GRAIN of truth in one of his post-mortem reports -- i.e., he at least may have spoken to Caleb Carter on the phone -- that his little "tweaks" seem like relatively minor infractions to me.
ReplyDeleteYes indeed Jim, it is all too predictable. We all know he is constitutionally incapable of reporting even something as sad and tragic as a suicide without his self-promotional fantasies mixed in. He's a "scheming, lying, psychotic, back-stabbing, vicious, cruel waste of human skin." Oops, did somebody already say that?
Oh, and welcome to the Truth Squad, Tim! If you'd care to join us here we'd love to have you.
ReplyDeleteKent OBVIOUSLY did not talk to Caleb Friday his body was discovered Friday morning and the report I heard he had been dead awhile.
ReplyDeleteDeWayne, Kent doesn't say he spoke to Caleb on Friday, I think you misread that. He says he spoke to him "just last month."
ReplyDeleteWill I was referring to what Kent was certainly implying, that he spoke with him late in the week he was claiming to KNOW what film he was watching which DROVE him to Suicide! A OBSERVATION NO ONE IN THIS TOWN HAS MENTIONED!
ReplyDeleteKent spouts NOTHING BUT LIES! He Breathes lies and HE SHITS Lies! His very DNA, deformed as it is is an Alfabet Soup of LIES!
Kent Barclay was NOT WORKING on a Script with Caleb or ANYONE ELSE on this PLANET only in Kents deranged DISEASED SYPHILITIC mind!
Caleb Carter was very CAPABLE of writing his own scripts and certainly did not need the collaboration of some hack in sack who could not get a job writing Alien interviews for The Weekly World NEWS!
Even GodDammned Tabloids have ETHICAL STANDARDS!
I left this on J1HM and I mean every word
dewayneinsd on Sun, 22nd Feb 2009 4:00 pm
I have been told Damons Story is complete BULLSHIT as Usual!
According to Brent Summers he discovered Calebs body Friday morning and he had been dead AWHILE
Calebs last contact with anyone seems to have been Wednesday!
This is typical Kent SHIT and Proof he is incapable of interacting with normal human beings instead he can only practice Necrophilia with DEAD CELEBRITIES and PORN STARS.
I am not interested in ANY Rehabilitation fo Kent Barclay Fraud,Con Man,CyberStalker and Web TERRORIST.
The man needs an ASYLUM, Straitjacket & Full meds not a Public Forum!
I have Banned him from my blog (DeWayne in San Diego)
I do NOT Interact with people in real life who are deranged idiots and I certainly will not here.
Anyone who wants to play with Kent be prepared for him to throw shit on your face just like the Chimps in the zoo!
Kent is simply ILL!
Will, I can understand you wanting to give Kenite the benifit of a doubt but the facts bare out the truth about Kent Barclay. He is a fraud and a liar. He is a disgusting fame monger who will prey on the dead to raise his agenda.
ReplyDeleteI can understand that you want to believe that there is some good in everybody but the truth is some people are just sick and twisted and they are beyond help.
I am guilty of hoping against all hope that there is hope and good for some but I have come to the concluson that I might be wrong about that.
As I also said here and on Just One Hot Minute I would have no problen with what Kent said if he would have just left out the parts highlighted in red. But kent has a problem he can not say anything without infusing his deluded lies into it.
A fact that has been proven time and time again. Jim certainly got that right in his comment.
Kentie has no edit button in his brain and he will start off writing something that makes sense and then he just can't help it the lies fall out of his brain.
Now mind you he is a sick man but the fact that he is allowed a platform to try and influence the world with his lies is an abomination.
Yves, I am truly sorry if you and DeWayne or anyone else misunderstood my comments. I was NOT giving Damon the benefit of the doubt, far from it. Everything he said about Caleb Carter was a lie, except for the fact that he had possibly spoken to him. There is no excuse for it, and I am not trying to make one for him. My intent was to point out the fact that, as you say, there may have been just a smidgen of truth in what he said, and then he had to go make up lies instead of just reporting that truth and leaving well enough alone. The fact that he has hurt the surviving family and friends of Caleb Carter with his vile lies is inexcusable.
ReplyDelete"Damon Kruezer has his ass handed to him again" by MJ Taylor AGAIN tonight. Wow, it's pretty awesome.
ReplyDeleteGay people are funny.
ReplyDeleteIt is truly sad that such a young man took his life for reasons only he would know. But then to have Kent say things like which movie he was watching prior to him hanging himself is disgusting to me. Someone needs to take care of Kents nasty habit of twisting words and statements to help himself.
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ReplyDeleteIf anyone would like to know the facts of our son's passing, you can write to me at chuckm90@gmail.com. If you know Jarrod and Jake, Tim, Britney or Wes and DJ George at the BR, they will confirm I am the real deal in the matter of Ben-Jamin, aka Caleb.
To DeW, Will and Yves, thank you for taking on the task of trying to get out the truth and to work with the facts in Ben's (Caleb) case.
Although it is a bit unsettling to see such odd comments made by someone about our loved one, it only pushes me to pursue my own inquiry into our dear sons last days and moments so that we can all better understand the motives and circumstances that surrounded his life and his reasons for wanting to end it this way.
I have talked to several of his friends while in SD last week tending to Ben. They have been a comfort and also a conduit of information and stories that have provided much comfort to the family. We thank you for being there for Ben and all of us.
You cannot imagine how much all of that has meant to us and how much you all mean to us even more now.
No matter the reasons, Ben's passing did allow for my Loving wife (Ben's “Mama” as he called her) to meet some of the dearest and rich spirited young people that claimed Ben as their friend and hearts Love. I am moved to tears when I remember you all and recall the past week with each of you, sharing this pain and rejoicing his life.
I truly regret that it took a situation such as this to finally meet many of you. We would have preferred to continue to share Benny with all of you in life as opposed to death. We want you each to know that you are now a member of our extended family that always seemed to grow due to Ben and his life.
We hope we can all go on in this life staying in contact and meeting time and again to celebrate life and all of its goodness.
So, for the record:
Benjamin Eli Gilbert
Age: 28
Born: Oct 9, 1980
POB: Fontana, CA
Died: Feb 18, 2009, based on M.E. report.
Official TOD: Feb 20, 2009. That was the date that Ben was discovered by the SDPD.
We wish to thank the SDPD for responding to our call for assistance to help locate Ben. They did a great job and were at his apt within minutes of the initial call by his close friend T, whom we were in communication with throughout the day. Thank you T, without you there, we may not have known until much later.
As far as Ben watching a vid titled the "Last Hangman". I have not been through all of his DVD collection as of yet, but the ones we have sorted thru did not contain one titled as such. I will however keep a dry eye open for it. If it is here, I will find it.
I did go thru his computer and I did not see it in his DVD listed vids he had recently played and there was no disk in the CD drive.
His surf history does not show him going to any web site that ran that movie either. Ben did not have a TV, VCR or DVD player except for his laptop.
Ben had very few material possessions in this life.
As far as Ben being unhappy, well aren’t we all from time to time? Life isn’t as easy for some as it is for others. Ben was involved with someone and it was a relationship that brought its difficulties and pain. In my opinion, it wasn’t healthy. I am still putting together the story of that relationship.
Ben was having a tough time finding work and had finally landed a job at a restaurant, Gourmet Hotdog. TJ the owner is a good guy in our book and I ask all to go by and say hey for Ben and try something from his menu as a thanks for offering Ben a job when he needed it most. Ben was very excited to get started at GH.
When I called TJ last week and broke the news to him about Ben, he took it pretty hard and that struck me to the core. I was deeply touched by the level of his grief and concern. He has a son as well and it hit home for him. It was clear to me how much charm and grace Ben possessed.
He was also attending community college and was set on becoming a Therapist and focusing on helping others in the Gay community. We were very proud of his finally getting some focus and direction and supported him in many ways to help him reach his dream.
We were always aware of Ben's work in the adult vid biz and although we didn’t like it, we understood it, accepted it as a part of Ben and did not judge him. He discussed the scripts he was writing and shared his production company plans and partnerships. We were in the loop only to the extent that he let us in.
With his passing, we are now able to find out much more about his involvements and dealings in that industry. These things are complex as you might expect, but we are intelligent worldly people and there isn’t much out there that shocks us. There are no barriers in our minds that prevent us from looking, listening and observing what is out there in order to get our questions answered. I hope that those we eventually meet will be as candid with us as they are with the camera.
Ben had the cultivated ability to conceal his deeper feelings and fears, even to his closest confidants. Can I hear an amen? He let on that he was fine, but deep inside; he struggled maybe more than most. He didn’t choose the easy path when it came to his sexuality and his community. It brought him great pleasure and often great pain. He became HIV infected due to his own careless and reckless behaviors and he took responsibility for it. He had some very recent medical concerns unrelated to his HIV condition. He cleared the fence 2 weeks ago with that concern and was fine.
I reviewed his recent hematology reports due to his HIV condition and looked over his daily med records. His doctor reported that his viral load was nearly “Non-Exist”. His blood was strong and healthy with no indication that Ben was in any near or long term danger.
For us, it appeared that Benny had safely turned a blind corner and that things would now pick up for him. However, we never truly knew or understood the depth of his pain when it came to matters of the heart and Love.
In the end, Ben wrote to a friend, “I just want to be normal”. I suspect that says it all, but who defines what normal is? For each of us there is a different definition of normal and trying to live within our own definition or even attempting to find it for ourselves can be the hardest thing we will ever do. We know that Ben wanted to have a “normal” Love relationship with a man of like heart.
He had some good role models in his life. My brother Steve and his life partner (now Husband) Bob. 25 years together and still in Love and committed faithfulness. Ben sometimes told his Mama that he wanted for himself what she has in me. I am flattered at his complement, but please note that she makes me want to be the man I always wanted to be in matters of Love and relationship. It is constant work, but work I look forward to every day none the less.
So whatever “normal” Ben was seeking, I have sincere trust in God that he finally found that perfect “normal” Love in God and in Heaven.
And the truth shall set you free Dearest Benjamin, now fly freely with your real angel’s wings and not that darn Victoria’s Secret strap-on wing set, my son. When I see you on the other side, you can catch me up on the latest in feather-wing fashion, halo settings and design, proper white robe adornment and the latest in harp hits that we will download on our H-Pods.
Till then, rest in peace Son.
Missing you more every passing hour, Your Loving Step Father, Chuck.
I am grateful to Dewayne for posting this.
ReplyDeleteBen, known as Caleb in his career, was a guy facing his demons. He was doing the best he could. It sounds like he was having a rough time, but he was beginning to come out of it.
He lost his way and could not find his way back. Ben is in a better place now.
May he rest in the never ending peace and love of God whose compassion is overflowing.
Kent what you posted is simply an awful cross for family and friends to bear at a time those folks mourn Ben's passing.
ReplyDeleteHave you no shame? No thread of humanity? Not even simple compassion for the terrible aloneness this young man was enduring in his final days? For what purpose could you possibly post words like those above so ill-considered as to only cause pain and misunderstandings?
How utterly without feeling you are. Leave. Be gone. You are not human. No one could ever be so cruel to the memory of another. You have abused common courtesy and decency to the point where it is evident you are without so much as an iota of humility. Go away. You have proven yourself unworthy of the company of honorable men and women.
This was a very interesting letter and it makes me feel so much better knowing that Caleb had family that cares and a family that accepted him just as he was. May Caleb rest in peace and our deepest sympathy goes out to Caleb's stepfather.
ReplyDeleteCaleb was a very colorful young man !
I am touched and honored that you posted to my blog. Thank you for sharing your kind words about your son. I gives me great joy to know that he was so loved.
ReplyDeletechuckm90 - Thank you. Those were beautiful words. My heartfelt condolences to you and your family.
ReplyDeleteHey kentie it must suck to get your lies shoved back down your throat. You still producing that film that you and Caleb colaborated on?
ReplyDeleteI was friends with Ben going way back to when he worked at Hollywood Video ( I helped him film his first video in his apartment in the High Desert ) Around the time he was doing his video for Shanes World I asked him about oDamon Kruezer or how ever you spell his name and He told me that he was a creepy old guy who freaked him out. I asked him about it becouse Damon? was putting pictures of Caleb on his site. Caleb was always talking about writting books and scripts. I could see him maybe sending that Damon guy a script to read but never would he work with him. I miss talking to Ben and the outragous stuff Caled Carter did was not what Ben was like ( for the most part! but Ben did have his days!).
ReplyDeleteThe post by Chuckm90 was posted here by Caleb's Step father. He also emailed me about it. I am just as shocked by it as anyone who read it. I do feel privleged that he chose my blog to post it. To the doubters out there and you know who you are I am sorry that you are so cynical.
ReplyDeleteFinal Post update incorporating the San Diego Union Tribune Obituary and the email from Chuck Martin Ben's Step father.
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Brad Breakfast has blogged that Caleb starred in bareback porn, and makes insinuations that Caleb may have been trying to infect others. I pointed out to Brad that it was another Caleb Daniels who appeared in the bareback video he mentions but he has yet to correct the posting on his website.
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I met Caleb/Benj right after I tested poz in Sept of 2003. I was struggling with the psychological issues that go along with such a diagnosis. I also was dealing with a serious drug habit. Caleb/Benj treated me with respect and dignity even though I was such a mess. He never did anything to risk his own health when he spent time with me. He never did drugs. He never drank. He encouraged me to quit the drug habbit (which i did). Later he even visited me in NorCal. I wish I could have been there for him the way that he was for me in 2003. I am sure now that he is the most beautiful angel in heaven. Thats the way I saw him when he was here in earth.
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That was nice of you to share you story about Caleb. I am sure his friends snd family apprieciate it. His tragic death is just another reminder that no matter how bad you think it is and how alone you feel there is always someone out there who loves you.
ReplyDeleteWe can all make a difference if we just listen more.